Mauwiis Blog..

2011-07-10T22:50:00.002+02:00

Hello-
long time ago since I wrote things here :p how ar u doing ?

Now after a few performances and some vacation and shit. I'm very tired hehe. oh well..

I'm making progress I think... now my body is fully recovered and I also eat alot :D ..that's a good thing!!!!

made few more songs--- and stuff. seeing someone.. and more :p today am really tired, need to wake up early tmrw. so imma go to bed.

just wanted to let u know im still alive u know and also to let u know I didn't forget u applechan :)
hope ur enjoying these days, far far away-

ur an apple. see ya.

special update; whats on my mind.

2010-11-13T00:11:00.007+01:00

Hey..

I was reading the little book I had. I wrote some chinese words and meaning into it and I was thinking about someone hehe ..

I saw the last words you taught me. bu yao zou . before u left. (no one died though for ppl who thinks that :P)

I was kinda wondering. why? cuz I mean like. we became friends. just for a few months even thought it felt like we knew eachother much longer... and then this. going to china. We were working at the same place hehe but since u left it was like soo boring and so empty.
always imagining how it was if you were there. always saying to myself "if she/he/it was here she/he/it would say "hey orangechan!" " hehe and I would say "hey applechan!" hehe really miss that :)..
so many things we did in those few months. I knew you were going back cuz you told me you wanted to go home long time ago hehe. but still .. oh well .. I just wanted you to be happy :)
I hope youre happy now ^^..

did you cry when you left? I'm just wondering hehe. do you still cry? :P

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My life right now...

well I got new job now. still need to start though but I'm looking forward :)

I hope I can finish my CD soon :) we got 3 songs and 2 song to record. we already recorded 1 song few months ago I think. oh well ... ^^

I'm probably going back to school too. like work and school. I want to be a sport teacher. some fighting sports. maybe something like martial arts.
I hope there something left for me to do.. I dont wanna end up fucked up you know.

I hope all the stress of everything is going away soon. living in my own house with my girl♥ and my best friend.. where we can relax and live in peace... I really wish for that to happen.

and to applechan : come visit us anytime! ..please :) we'll wait for you..

please click here << beautiful song.

after a long time

2010-08-20T02:40:00.005+02:00

Oke.. Hi.. ! :)

..after a long time i post this post.. lol

well I hope ur doing fine, i also hope that i'm doing fine.. lol ..*dun ask*

Oh yeah.. its late so u'll see that I sometimes use the word "I" just like "i" and words with a ' .. I wont use that like now . cuz im pretty tired.. of waiting.. working.. and not going to bed cuz i dont want to/ i cant sleep..

listening to songs now.. sounds good though.. Jpop hehe !

well I'm working at the restaurant now for.. let me think.. since may so.. *still thinking*.. my mind is kinda empty.. okkei.. lets think ..working now for.. *few min later*.. kinda 3 months.

lol ..that took long .. oh well... I got more stuff to do... cleaning. but well it's just a step by step thing i have to do till I reach the counter. I hope that will be soon cuz I just wanna make sushi hehe. wanna know how.. :3

oh well.. guess i have to do my best then.
I noticed that my body condition is getting worse though.. not much vitamines .. I really need to take those pills.. getting sick a bit ..

hehe but dont worry , I'll be fine :)

man... I feel lonely today. my mom is leaving to her new house. and well a friend is leaving to other country. ... about that friend.. first I thought I wont show much emotion when I heard that he/she/it will leave this country... men.. well I didnt cry so much though.. ..just a bit

.. today well I dont know what it was but i cried. just bcuz my girlfriend was not home. wtf... normally I dont fuckin care about that. and just leave her alone to have fun.. what do i do... being emo.. being selfish wanting to see her so much.. geez.. I saw her like yesterday..
oh well.. love makes me so weak.. but i love it.. hehe
but also she makes me strong.. wanting to live and not die :3

but also this .. why am I feeling so angry if i cry?.. hnn i dun really understand. if I cry .. I just want to punch somthing. ..its annoying.... just comment me.. txt me.. whatever me but dont fuck me.. if u know the answer .. T_T

oh well gonna chat now.. sorry for a long post about.. well nothingXD but thanks for reading if u did ;3

TAKE CARE!!

Those days of my life..

2010-05-02T20:19:00.008+02:00

hello!!

I hope u guys doing great!^^

hehe, well my mom did go to Japan few weeks ago but couldn't come back cuz of the vulcano so she had to stay there longer >_< (not fair, cuz she was happy.. well I would be happy too if I had to stay longer lol) but she came back safely^^ I got some presents, made a picture of it (not everything though, dont know why) hehe.. :

Japanese candy, its not everything bcuz I ate the rest of it hehe

Kamekun! (my grandma made it by herself ^^cool huh!?)

L48type, a mini mini guitar.. really cool ^^

Well then.. I'm now busy with finishing my promo-CD. The song we're now busy with is called "Kimi e". I made it for my Japanese grandma so it will be in Japanese.

Oh well and my mom cut my hair :

I know this is a stupid picture but it's the only one. (with Kamekun)

Let me think... more? yeah probably..

Oh yeah, I'm into a game I used to play when I was 12 hehe, link:

http://www.spele.nl/game/fishy/fishy1.html

It's a real fun game like ur a fish and has to eat the other fishes to become bigger and if u touch a bigger fish than u are.. ur dead xD hehe. It's really funny!

There's this girl, Kamiki Aya. I really like her music. How did I find her, well I wanted to search for "Ashita no tame ni" but of an other artist but she (Aya) also made a song called "Ashita no tame ni".. so I listened to it and I really like it!! LINK:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9OjV6NVxdU

It's a real cool song! ^^ hope u like it too~

More? ....

..gonna start working next week! yay! really happy that I can finally start!! hehe, I waited so long. I hope I can use the polite Japanese bcuz it's not that I can't but I really dislike to talk polite if it's Japanese cuz I never actually did. hehe

More? ....

I think not~

hehe watch this one too :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dkHJKakHMpo
The annoying orange EP: Wazzup2 : wasssabi~

..and really!! this song!!! :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mph1oYYJz4c&feature=related
Angela Aki - Tegami

This song really gives me power to move on... also her way of playing piano is really awesome.. This song she made for her 15 year old self.
When she was 15 years old she wrote a letter to herself and later when she was 20 years I thought, she got this letter and she read it. She thought like, waow I had so much things. So decided to write this song.
Well what I tell u might not be 100% correct but it's kinda like this, why she wrote a song to herself ^^.. if u watch a interview of her she will tell u that. ^^

Well then I think this is enough for now!
I'll try to post more actually, just for my own memory and well to share my days ^^

I wanna show my grandma that I can do something too. Becuz I'm kinda the dumb one in the family, I know I'm not really dumb but just to say it easily. So I wanna show my family that I be someone too without learning at school and stuff ^^ that I'm not really dumb hehe !

Now, what I really want is .. going to Japan and hug my grandma bcuz no one knows that it could be the last time you know.

MATA KITTO AERU YO!

Kimi no tame dattara kaette kuru yo

Itsumo arigatou!
genki ni shitete ne^^!

What do I do now?

2010-03-29T14:32:00.003+02:00

HEY! HEY APPLE!

ahh well I love the annoying orange :D hehe

hi, how ur doing?.. me? ahh well I'm doing great now ^^hehe

let's see.. I didnt post so much lately.. why?.. WHY!? ..well I dunno either.. maybe lazy? dunno..maybe tired? .. hwn could be.. why am I typing questions and answering by myself? ..dunno either XD hehe I'm bored~

NYANYNAYNAYNAYN!!

..okkei let's be serious.. I got the phone HTC HD2 .. (dont have a picture of it so go google it if you wanna know what kind of phone it is ;D )

and more......

I saw the apartment today and well there's also someone who wants it too .. so I hope I'll get that place.. it's really big room ._. didn't expect it to be so big actually..
ahh well I hope I can go there so I can work as soon as possible!!

still learning to do everything right handed! =D YAY!
it's difficult but well :D it will be alright ... soon xD

okkei that's it for now! going to doctor soon ;D .. and I'm too tired/lazy to edit this page..!

BYE!! =D TAKE CARE!!!

.... BLEEEHH!! ;D

Hey all!!

2010-03-10T23:37:00.002+01:00

Hi,

..how'r u doin these days?.. I hope you're doing great..

I wanna say I'm doing great but.. I got sick of eating egg.. and well can't eat much anymore.. it really sucks cuz am hungry everytime.. but if I eat too much I will throw up again.. so it sucks..

ahh well.. stupid headache ..still a bit dizzy sometimes.. and stuff.. hwnn ..

..I think am getting confused though.. first I was a bit too busy with stressing and stuff..and school and stuff.. now I quit .. I got more relaxed and got more time for my music.. but am gonna work though.. can't wait!..

...hope I'll be better then..

..well.. and now while am relaxed more.. I can think about more things you know.. what's makin me confused is just.. I think too much about .. "am I living in a real world?.. or.. is this all just a dream.. like am just somewhere laying in a hospital or somewhere dead or smthn.. and this all is just a dream..".. . got confused on that one..

..maybe bcuz now everything is going good and stuff.. just can't believe.. or just bcuz I always can feel and stuff in my dreams when I sleep.. dunno.. . .. and its difficult to explain though..
..and smthn.. just makes me feel alone.. also feelin a bit depressive.. but on the other side.. I dun care and just feeling happy...

..and stuff like.. am feelin too tired to live.. but on the other side.. I just spoke my grandma again.. so well.. am kinda excited cuz I know I'll meet her again.. some day..

now friends saying.. they're gonna miss me and stuff.. also at my old internship.. makes me feel am livin in a real world.. but.. just smthn.. makes me think the other way...
it's so annoying..

...and some people .. well till now just 1 though.. doesn't accept the fact that I stopped with school.. and go work.. but wel he doesnt listen to me.. he doesnt know anything.. ahh.. let him think his own way... I do what I like and what's the best for me.. cuz he's not me so he doesnt know better..

..hwnn ..m gonna game on psp now.. feeling really tired.. ! almost cleared my game!! yea!

ahh well.. too tired to edit this page more..
..somehow I wish that this all is just a lie.. that this all was just a dream.. somehow I just wanna wake up.. and be with my grandma.. ..I think that's all I need to clear my mind ..

but well.. if there's some beer.. I'll drink myself to happiness..

and dun forget..

...never give up ur dream.. no matter what!

THE END!

Heeloooooooooooooww~~~ you! =D

2010-03-07T01:41:00.006+01:00

^^ hellow! long time no post right :3 sucks~
but well hehe I'm back! !! =D
..now you may stop clapping and cheering =D xDhehe just kidding^^

well let's see.. I decided to do my best at school.. this time I really mean it..
cuz well I wanna go back to Japan before my grandma.....

she's kinda my reason to live.. cuz .. she was always by my side.. what ever happens you know.. she learned me a lot and I'm really thankful to her.. I think .. if she ever...
you know.. .... then I really need time to recover... right now I really miss her..
and also my whole family in Japan.. T_T

I really wanna meet them again.. and someday.. I will ^^ ne

well next topic..

The song of the CD I'm making with my producers.. the first song is finished!! =D yaay!!
I already sent the preview version to some friends and they all like it!! ^^ so happy!

Soon we're gonna record the second song.. that song I made for my grandma cuz I really love her.. she's the person I live for and for her I'll do anything to make her happy..^^ ..for her I'll finish my school and go to her ..stay with her as long as possible ^^..

let's see... I'm gonna talk with my mom about the next performance..
..hwnn.. more news?.. let me think .....

oh yeah.. March 14th is my b-day^^ yay!
today I already got my b-day present from my mom.. eating at a restaurant ^^ really expensive one though.. waow..

but well..
then 13th going to that same restaurant with my mom, my brother and some man (I always call him dad cuz he makes me feel like he is^^) .. so it's like a little family dinner right ? ^^

and then 14th another restaurant with friends ^^ and my love ♥ hehe :3

can't wait though..^^ ..and now ..... I dunno ... go to sleep ^^ (probably not but well)

click HERE to watch my art ^^

THANK YOU FOR READING AND CLICKING !! (if you do so!)

(someone ♥ ..made screen shot of me .. )

..first post in how long?.. dunno hehe

2010-02-11T21:06:00.012+01:00

hey men..

it's long time ago I posted.. just not in the mood I guess.. or just gaming ;3 hehe
well I made some art....first of all wanted to show you some drawings I made:

..well I gave to someone a tutorial through cam.. how to draw eyes.. just a easy way.. so well after that I couldn't resist and make someone of it..hehe turn out in this drawing I guess..

hehe.. the left one used to be Gackt (click for his image -link-) and the right one is me.. just wanted to draw a purikura picture with Gackt..xD hehe but I failed.. he's too difficult to draw +plus I was too lazy to spent more time on it..xD

..first of all.. this was only just a sketch when I started .. and I saw it some day once again and just made somthn..and somehow I liked it..
and made a title for it ^^.. ..music is my life men.. can't live without it...

well this one was just.. I felt like killing myself..once again .. ..ugh.. depressed I guess..

just made for someone *hearts*

+
after scanning the DN drawing.. just made a digital version of it.. I actually only like the left one.. L (Ryuuzaki) ..

hehe.. more.. dunno.. just take a look at my Deviant-art (-please click-)

so well ;3 I hope u like the drawings though.. and well I can't draw so damn good so sorry for that.. hehe

and now... I just dreamed about someone.. it was like this..

- I was somewhere..dunno .. mountain?.... well somewhere with trees.. there was a place I was.. dunno anymore but I had to wash some clothes.. and I was drinking some Pinacolada.. and the friend said somethn to me .. I think it was like "Mauw.. u have to go there".. cuz I had to go somewhere... weird...
but well.. and then there was this chef of a Japanese restaurant, he was like "Mauw what ur doing?"..and I was like drinkin that alcoholic stuff.. and later .. I was like telling my friend like.. you know how to drink it ..so it will be delicious?.. ..so I let my friend see how to drink cola with .. pinacolada... wtfak.. well I put some cola on it.. like frozen cola.. it was like a slice .. and put it on the glass with pinacolada so it will float on the alcoholic drink.. and take the slice ice cola away and eat it.. like lick it.. so well.. that's the dream -...

wtfak men..XD I could taste the cola though.. really weird.. whahah.. well funny to read it again though.. whehe..lawl..

and.. my first song of my promo CD is almost done ;3 hehe.. maybe even today.. dunno.. I hope as soon as possible though.. :3 hehe.. *curious*..
can't wait men!..

my psp will be fixed.. some day.. and I hope then .. that I can play .. till it's broke again..XD whhahaa.. noo kidding :3.. hehe but I'll play..till battery dies..

well then this is it for now..

I hope you enjoyed hehe.. this one was a happier post.. dun u think..^^

take care all!!.. and remember..it's cold outside.. take warm clothes and warm jacket ne!! ;D

later!!!

M.

One day....

2010-01-14T22:04:00.003+01:00

One day..

A pregnant woman was there walking on the street. She smiled and was still walking on the street. Then something happened.......*tundumdumdummm!!!*...

...she got a flower from someone.. so everything was still normal.

....THEN something happened again! OMG!.... ....WHAT HAPPENED!!??

.....she fell.... NOOEEEZZ!! WHYYYY... {I dunno}.... !....okay... so she felt on the street.. ....that means that... she could lose her unborn child...

...but.. everything was fine cuz she fel on a lot of pillows.. on the street.. ...and now you might ask yourself ..why there are pillows on the street...

...I'll explain to you....
..while you were watching the pregnant woman.. you just didn't realize that a truck with pillows.. ...broke down.. so that why there are pillows on the street.. and now you might ask why there's this truck...
well..that's becuz... well.... I dunno either...

...so...where was I.... oh yh.. the pregnant woman fel on the pillows..

...well let's just skip to the part of ...uhm...well let's just skip this day.. and go to the day that the unborn child will be born...

THERE's A KID COMING OUT SOON!!

we're home ... and the pregnant woman..well her water just broke..... ouch!
...so..she's gonna uhm..puch and yell and ....things like that..!

....but....we're not gonna watch the woman right now.. cuz there are kids playing outside.. they're playing game ... with a ball .... ......okkei...hear this out ..cuz this is gonna be..... awesome...!!

...the woman pushed and pushed.!!..SO HARD that she pushed..still pushing.. and tryin to get that kid out of her... ...... but once she pushed too hard.... something just popped out her ..and .. like..BOOM against the wall and just jumped ..or I dunno what happened but just SCRASH! out of the window..!! ...

the kids thought.. that it was a ball .. but actually it was a egg... but well they kicked the egg..and it broke...... the kids thought it's not good so they ran away..... ....

....a kid....or..I dunno what it is..somehting.. ....just crawl to the house...... OMG...it's soo scary..!..

...and then the door opened.. dunno how ..but IT!!.. just crawl upstairs... .......nd ..when IT got upstairs....there was a band playing .. ..the band's called Gazette... they were playing...for IT.. ...becuz they thought ..it was the grudge cuz the hair of IT was like in her face..so they thought "waooww...the grudge is ssooooo visual kei!!"... but..one second later they quit.. cuz ... IT was too happy to see them so..Ruki.. said "..oh men.. IT is too happy... that not soo visualkei!"... hehehe..XD

so IT got upstairs.. it crawl to the room of her mom.... nd well when the doctor opened the door.. he saw IT!...

so he picked IT up..and removed the hair from IT's face..and you know.. there's this miracle ... this freaking miracle...... ......the doctor...noticed that IT...is girl!!...and..she!!....is soooooooooo..cute... :3

...OMG.. and that's the story how she's born..

PS: ....this story is made by a crazy dude.. so ..well but she's cute though..

PSS: .....the grudge is sooo visualkei..!!

PSSS:.... I'll stop PS'n.... LATER!

mood: .... ..just being Mauwii...

..ghehe

2010-01-13T19:45:00.003+01:00

hi all.. just wanted to tell my day here.. well dayS actually..

at my work... omg.. .there's this guy.. always talking about himself..

well I dun mind at all!.. cuz I also talk a lot with a lot of "I" and "me" in my senteces.. even now..xD lol...

but well.. this guy... omg..... ..he drives me crazy.... nd usually I dun get annoyed that easily but.. now I can't hold my anger, irritation and everything inside me anymore ._.

....we we're making something together at my work.. without him ofcourse cuz he always tell us .. that he's so busy with everything.. well the things he always do are like.. drinking tea .. eating something..or u know like that.. or watching us or smoke a cigarette.. like that.. so we we're done making something.... and we have to give him that so he can show the boss u know.. so what did one of us hear in the end...

...he told the boss that HE made it ._. ....wtfak.. that's not fair u know.. ...like that HE did everything and stuff.. ..

well we discussed about this at work.. cuz he had to go somewhere..so....

well .. we dun care that he says like he made it even he doesn't even touched it so much.. but he does that to get some pride..of others and u know.. like "good work men"..like that.. we dun care.. but he does that always.. so.. that's why ... it annoys us so much..

...nd yet.. normally I dun care but this one.. .... I really can't stand... it's like ur in a room with the music u dun like.. turned on super loud on speakers ..nd listening to it all the week ._. ...then u'll get crazy...

I even almost got a attack.. like.. I was so angry.....waa......couldn't hold it anymore and stuff..but lucky for him.. he had to go somewhere.. ... ._. ......hmnz... he's sweet and stuff though.. but talks too much ._. ... I mean about him..

hwnnn.. -_- ...tired.. and wanna work out.. *going to do so thoughxD*

...can't stop workin out -_- ...ugh.. kinda addicted to it .. ^^"ehe ...

well then.. ^^ take care!

PS:.. kimi ni aitai yo~...

..nande

2010-01-12T00:57:00.004+01:00

take care all!

-- my CD

2010-01-03T00:28:00.003+01:00

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo =D .. yh am just so happii cuz today!!..well actually now.. 00:31 hour so.. actually yesterday.xD ...we finished my first song for my promotion CD ... =D!! YAAAAAYYY!! well they need to edit it a bit of course ..waow... it's finally done :D .. now we're busy with the second song ^^.. so hoping it will be done soon =D ...well just wanted to tell u guys about this and just put this for reminding and stuff =D!! YAAY!!.. ...!! =D the first song is called "One more time" and the second song is Japanese and it's called.. "kimi e" ... that means like.. "to you". .. so^^.. waoW!.. cool men =D ..and the third song.. dunno.. still have to look for that one ;D! well then! =D. ..take care :D M.

PS: I cut my hair =D xD again! ... and still it's too long..XD ..photo below:

I call it "hair 2010" .. :D yay! ..genki de ne!!

The worst day ever ._. ...but also quite fun .. :3

2010-01-01T21:51:00.003+01:00

ghehe hey guys.. this is the first post of this year!!
well Happii new year.. and I hope u enjoyed yesterday night..

well I didn't ._. ( together with a friend of me )

..a friend of me came here.. and we were first like "okay, it's a bit boring" and later we were even getting depressed cuz it was super boring and u know.. my mom wasn't home so it was more boring than ever ._.!

..well so we decided to go to Amsterdam ..yh. that's like 1 and a half hour with the train but becuz it's new years eve and with lot of fireworks and family wanted to be together u know... there were no train.. we called the cabs but no.. they were like "yh it's 130 euro's" ..we were like wtf that's not normal.. and so.. we decided to walk..and lift and u know..try to get a cab and that kinda stuff ^^

..but! ... nobody wanted to stop their cars.. even the cabs.. ._. ...bitches..
so we went to a gas station and bought some Red Bull to drink and well asked the guy which way Gouda was cuz we wanted to go there first..

well later we were going to Den Haag but we couldn't anymore cuz there was no side road on the high way to walk.. so we called the cops.. and they couldn't.. well they didn't want to help us I guess.. he told us that there's a exit on the side.. well we knew that of course cuz we went looking few doors but there was like a lake there so we went back to the road walked further but well they told us to go there so.. we went to the door again .. opened it and ..we just walked there ..followed the lake and hoped we were somewhere..

..u know .. we were walking like close to the lake right.. on that moment on.. it was "Happii new Year" .. or in other words.. it was midnight .. January first.. well ...this was the most sad and cold new years eve ever ... in my whole life.. but well ..let's go on with the story..

later.. yh..cuz otherwise it's too much text..
well.. we were somewhere.. dunno.. we were lost..xD asked some strangers where we were..nd they told us to walk back and ask there.. at the other gas station..

well we went there.. but it was closed.. we walked further and there was a sign with "Den Haag" !! ..so we were really happy..

- well actually.. the name Den Haag made me a bit sad though.. and all the fireworks and stuff..cuz I miss someone..right now.. even though it sounds really stupid.. this time.. I wasn't alone so on the other hand it made me also a bit happy.. cuz he was with me nd..well we only had each other.. I miss him too though.. -

..so we walked ..still walking from 22 o clock.. ._.
nd maybe that time was.. almost 1 o clock or somthn..
well we saw a lot of things though.. ...^^
still on the way to Den Haag .. we arrived somewhere.. and we thought like "YAY!! WE ARE IN DEN HAAG!!!!" ...but no.. we were still in Rotterdam ...but then . I guess the north side of Rotterdam.. we saw a sign with "Den Haag 25"..but then u have to go on the high way.. so we couldn't get there anyway.. so we gave that up..
I told him like.. "we can go to Zoetermeer cuz that's close to Den Haag and we know there someone so".. and so we started to walk to Zoetermeer :D
..well it was like.. I guess.. 15 km .. so still far away..

and there was a beat up drunk man.. his face was covered with his own blood and just gross to see.. with some other man who watched over him.. so my friend said "ahh that way is Rotterdam Zuid {south side}".. so that drunk man started to say "what Rotterdam!! u got somethn against it!!!".. so well.. that drunk man was like pissed of by hearing "Rotterdam" we were like wtf and we saw the drunk man kneeling on the road and crying and saying "I wanna go back to Rotterdam!!"..xD so well it was kinda funny though.. even though we were in Rotterdam T_T

...hwnn we called that other friend but ..well later ..my battery of my cellphone was like..empty.. so I decided to switch off.. and well I didn't care anymore.. we were just too tired and weak .. we couldn't walk so good anymore and so cold .. hungry ..that kinda stuff.. so we decided to go to a house of someone..and just ask them to call a cab..
well the people were so nice that they brought us to the train station .. Rotterdam Centraal.. cuz there were no cabs..

we were really happy when we saw on the board that a train was going to Amsterdam around 3 o clock.. waooow... we could even run to get some tickets and run to the platform ... waahh..

when we were in Amsterdam I thought "Waow everything is so big" ... I never went to Amsterdam so..it's new for me xD..
well..we ate a pizza and drank somthn .. just coffee and tea though..^^

then we went to his home I guess.. and well also that was a long road to walk T_T..xD so we slept ..and that other friend we just dropped.. called us to asked us if we were okay and stuff.. so yh.. ..it wasn't really a good new years eve.. we didn't even celebrate and stuff.. so.. we went to a Japanese restaurant to celebrate it today... but on the other hand.. I liked it ..^^ he's such a nice kid..

and so.. we were in Amsterdam .. a long story though.. am sorry but.. this.. I just had to tell u guys.. it was like.. 22 till 3 walking and we were in Amsterdam around 4.30 or somthn and sleep around 6 somthn.. I guess

....really happy am now home.. so I can sleep on my own bed and just.. close to my precious guitar.. ^^

..about my legs.. I can't stretch it... walking hurts.. xD but well it's just annoying though :D .. just doing stretching exercises to get better and stuff ^^

well ..so ^^ Happy new year and I hope u enjoyed ne! ..
oyasumi~

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Note: this time I didn't say "him/her" about the friend who was with me.. cuz he don't mind anyway.. xD ^^ ..hehe

Ps: ..this day we won't forget.. we said.. well to be honest.. I already lost a lot of details..xD

Happy New Year!!

2009-12-31T20:43:00.004+01:00

hey guys!... this is my last post for this year!! :D yaaayy!!

now 20:44 .. is the time.. well.. hmnz.. I feel really bad that I stayed at home.. drinkin beer right now ..

am not bored but I miss my friends.. especially one friend in special.. really really miss him/her... if he/she were here in this same country and not somewhere else on vacation.. I was with him/her.... ..well if I could ne.. nd if he/she wants.. then .. I was there..

hwnnn...next year...probably my last new years eve in this country.. I won't be home.. really sure of that! ..but it's still far so.. we'll see ..

can't wait till 7th February though.. !! ..performance~ =Dyyaayy!!
..dunno what to share with u actually.. just wanted to say that I miss people..xD..hehe

making a new song.. with someone right now.. well we'll see how it will be in the end.. if it sucks.. well too bad.. then we have to make new one.. and .. still gonna record my own songs of course.. well..^^ can't wait ne!

but anywayz.. Happy new year..and take care!! ^^

message to u:
..if ur home.. we'll go somewhere! .. dun care where.. just somewhere.. ahh well ..just wanted to say I miss u.. hope ur get home safely.. !! so....well

kiwotsukete ne! .. happii new year! ^^
wo deng ni... {I hope it's correct xD.. ^^

jyaa na!

M.

... << am now like this..

...not so long post ^^

2009-12-29T19:29:00.007+01:00

..hey

this won't be the last post for this year..

I hope u peepz doing fine!!.. ^^

Someone I know.. ...the one who likes stars..nd that stuff.. I made a picture just in case she/he can't see it in real life anymore.. so here for u:

it's the tree.. am sure u never saw it cuz it was kinda after they put the stars on the apartment..

..I've got a close up for ya.. :

hope u like the tree too :D

well ..and there was a chupa chup thing @ centraal ..on the place where pathe is.. u could take free chupa chups.. out of the ground.. cuz of Xmas I guess.. well. got a picture!

..jyaa enjoy what ur doing ^^!! .. take care

.......... M.

Santa meeting!!

2009-12-25T18:27:00.006+01:00

hey peepz..

Merry Xmas !

just wanted to share some pictures for today ^^

I saw a Santa meeting !! ..well they were like dunno maybe performing a ritual or something !! xDhehe check it out:

...they're so creepy... always smiling ..... waow...

well..xD even my dog was in de mood of winter ._. ...check:

...she's still so ugly....xD .. I always say that to her like.. "are u ugly!? ..are u ugly.?? "..xDhehe.. then she get mad.x.D whaha

anywayz.. :3

....I made this heart in the snow with my shoes :D

.. well ghehe ^^

I ate self-made sushi ^^ ...gonna watch Avatar soon ..^^ so I hope it'll be fun ne ^^..
I hope u guys enjoy this day.. ^^..nd if not.. just remember.. today is the day to be happy.. cuz it's just one day a year anywayz.^^..sharing feelings ne.. nd tomorrow.. u can stop being happii if u like that :D

jyaa na!! ;D merry Xmas once again!! ^^

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pretending to be happii.. every year the same

donna ni kizutsuitara itami ga kieru no kana? ..oshiete kure yo..

Snow!!!

2009-12-20T19:45:00.006+01:00

Hey!! a lot of snow today :0!!

=D really had fun.. ....after 3 o clock!..

I was outside with my lil bro.. to create a giant snowman! .. but we couldn't get the balls on each other cuz it was too big..xD

so..we decided to set those snowballs next to each other and to create a big fat body of it.. but ..after maybe 30 minutes.. we decided to make a animal of it.. first dog.. but I immediately changed my mind and said to my lil bro it has to be a cat =D yay! ..so we made a cat!!

..well like it took us maybe 2 hours ._. .. we were getting tired and stuff.. but anywayz.. we got this !! watch! =D

ghehe :3

and then my lil sister came to us.. she was already playing outside with someone else.. but when she was there.. ._. ....was soo stupid.. we were making photo's... ..u know what she did.. she threw a snowball on the camera.. ._. that's really stupid.. but anywayz.. we we're not really playing with her anywayz :3

Let's see how big it is.. :

am just ... like 153 cm .. so well ..it's big ne!! =D ... my lil bro took this from below..so I look taller ._. anywayz.. ...

... that's his head... I called him "ToMato".. cuz To.. of my lil bro's name and Ma of my name.. nd "ToMa"..sounds so weird.. so ToMato it is :3

xD hehe..
ahh days before today :3.. I made a snowman... a mini snowman.. ..u know him already if u read my previous post :3

isn't he cute :D hehe. he's still alive on my balcony.. ..becuz he's melting..it looks like he's smiling.xD he's also surrounded by new snow..maybe he's happii xD ghehe
am happii that he looks so happii :D

well this is it for now =D hope u like it !!!

take care!! =D merry x-mas !!

Happii X-mas!

2009-12-17T21:52:00.002+01:00

Hey guys..

just wanted to share this :

click to enlarge ne.. ^^

PS: the snowman.. I made him outside today after my work before going home.. my gloves dun have fingertips.. so..it was so cold that I couldn't feel anymore.. XDlol but it was so fun to make it ^^

PPS: ..made this in photoshop.. 2 (the snowman and the snow) photo's I made with my camera and 1 (wooden sign) just found by google.. ^^ and the rest...just photoshop ^^ =D yay!

I wish u a great and healthy 2010 ^^!!

TAKE CARE!!

M.

Last weekend..

2009-12-15T22:53:00.003+01:00

hi...

nd yh I know it's kinda late.. but anywayz.. I still remember a lot about the last weekend..

Friday..
..to my work.. well I was happier than usual.. didn't know why but now I think it's becuz I was going to a disco party.. hehe.. nd there were my friends of course and someone I like... {{still trying to forget that kid TwT..

ahh well.. we went there and the bodyguards outside were like "how old are u kid"..at me..cuz have like short ...really short legs..xD ..asshole..
..but anywayz.. we went in that building.. nd other guards were like.. they had to feel ur body to check u don't have a gun or something u know.. so.. that boy just .. ......... how can I tell u this...*thinking*
.....his hands were like going everywhere ._. .... my chest.. my legs..like inside... 0o ... even my butt........... ..I think he's gay cuz he thought I was a boy...xD ..even though I don't mind that..

...later just dancing a bit.. drinking .. talking.. making friends.. nd stuff..^^..then going home at 6 o clock in the morning.. gawsh we were soo tired .... =_=.. the party started at 22.00 till 6.00 hours.. waaooow.. xD

Saturday..
We slept a lot....well we woke up..finally.. nd like eating ..of course.. xD .. nd let's think.. ahh yh... we hired some movies... ....horror.. well when we checked the movies.. it really sucked =_= .. IT WAS SO BORING!!.. really crap .. =_=..
but we watched the simpsons nd well I slept during watching..so dunno what happened after that of course..xD

Sunday..
Well .. we went to my house... cuz there was another party.. ^^
X-mas party.. well I know it's not X-mas yet but.. just having fun u know ^^ ;D

we just went to a cafe and just having fun like.. ..dancing.. well I didn't dance though.. it was actually more jumping and moving but well..xD what ever!
..it was fun.. but u know..the kid I like... now maybe for a year... ..was there too.. cuz I asked to..
I think it was a wrong think to ask that kid to come.. cuz I told that kid that I like her/him.. but.. well he/she didn't wanted a relationship... ..I knew it was nothing though.. I knew I didn't care..but just cried almost the whole time during the party.. I even got drunk.... on purpose.. but.. it wasn't really good.. I was throwing up for ..maybe 3 hours or somthing..xD hehe..lol

anywayz.. I dun care.. I care about that kid..but not about being drunk.. cuz am still young u know.. this was just a day to learn that ..maybe.. like.. "dun drink too much!!"..nd "dun ask him/her out anymore"... nd that kinda lessons...xD ahh what ever.. >_<

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to you..

boku no sugata ga kieru made.. ganbatteru kara ......kimi mo sou shite hoshii...
soshite.. kimi ni aitakute.. nantoka kanashiinnda..
zutto matsu no wa ..boku ni wa heiki dakedo .. mata aetara ii ne ^^..
kimi wa boku ni totte taisetsu na nakama dakara.. yume mo nakutemo.. atode nani suru no ka shiranakutemo.. kimi ni totte taisetsu na hito no tame ni.. ganbatte ikite hoshiinnda..
ai wo wasurezu .. kimi ga shiawase dattara.. ore mo shiawase nandakara..
mata aeru hi made mo zutto waratte ne.. ... soshite saigo ni..
..kimi ga donna ni kanashikutemo... donna ni ureshikutemo ... donna ni kurushikutemo .. boku wa zutto kimi no mikata dakara.. zutto soba ni ite ageru kara.. nanka attara itte kure yo..
...sorede kimi ga boku no sewa ni natte.. meccha kansha shiteru yo!
..jyaa mata aeru hi made ne ^^ ..

wo xiang ni..

..what's on my mind!?

2009-12-08T18:19:00.011+01:00

Hi peepz..

today.. I'm kinda ..not very happy.. ..well what I wanted to share was , as u know.. I made a sunset picture in Photoshop for someone..

Well and I think I also wrote that am gonna do something with snow the next time.. well ..am sorry but I can't really do something with snow u know.. ..dunno why..it's just.. I dun want to make something that's kinda the same picture as Christmas .. cuz I dun like Christmas that much..

..but! .. I asked my friend "do u like the moon?" ..well I think I asked that but.. probably I did. .. My friend answered like "yh I like".. so.. well I made this for u .. becuz I said so..

..I couldn't make snow stuff so I chose polar bears.. and my friend also likes stars.. so I made that too.. ^^

like I always do .. first the basic of my art :

click to enlarge..

this is the Main of the moon, sky and the ground.
The polar bears .. I made those also in Illustrator with the pen tool. just followed the lines of the real picture.. .. see below. :

click to enlarge (this picture is from Google)

and so I made this first in Illustrator:

click to enlarge..

...now it's still ugly and ..kinda naked without the fur..xD but hey!! at least u can see it's a bear!

well in Photoshop I gave them fur! :

click to enlarge.. ^^"

and well .. that's actually the snow part.. just polar bears.. now we go to the main part and the final!!.. ^^

so as I said to you .. I made this for you .. it's really for u again.. just like the sunset.. I hope u really like it.. !!.. so ..well take a look.. ^^? ..below:

this one you should enlarge if u want to see the stars too!!

..take care everyone!! ^^ ..

Jyaa na!

M. <3

PS: please visit my profile for all my arts!! : http://chibi-gackt.deviantart.com/

Thank you!

special day today...

2009-12-06T18:39:00.004+01:00

hey guys..

Today I went to a movie called "2012".. which is like 3 hours.. ..well .. I did sleep few times while the movie.. but what ever.. it was a cool and beautiful movie (^^)

..I didn't go alone though.. just with someone..
after movie..my friend.. who was with me.. gave me somthin..like Christmas gift.. ...I didn't know..really how to react or somthn.. didn't know what to say...cuz.. it's my first Christmas gift ever u know.. I just kept smiling.. (even now while typing) .. I like it dayo! ..thanks (^^)

then..we went eating.. McDonald.....well..it was tasty..
after that.. we went to the Zoo! .. .but it was raining so ..not many animals were outside.. really stupid.. -_-"
.. :0 some animals were dead.. so the cage was empty.. !!.. ..... no..xD just kidding !

but it was fun.. (^^)! .. I liked it today (..but the birds just scared me o_o)

then well.. we went home ne.. hwnn.. crazy man yelling .. ugh... ._.
but well.. before I was going home I went to a place..where I can relax and do whatever I want.. ..there .. u can see stars... really beautiful..and no one's coming there at this time so.. really peaceful.. ..また泣いた。。
just.. ne ^^

hwnn.. really nice day.. the present is really nice ^^.. and ..well kinda special to me ne ..

un.. take care~

M.
...............................
on the way home.. I saw blue stars on my apartment.. really beautiful.. ..see picture below.. click to enlarge ne! (^^)..

..wo de tian na~~

2009-11-25T23:10:00.008+01:00

.. happii day in the past .. with Mickey Mouse! <3

....yes.. I have learned that..

...and yes ..it's chinese.. well I didn't want to talk about that though..
ano.. I made some stuff again .. I was kinda bored so .. hwnn.. I thought about someone.. won't say who..cuz..privacy blahh... so.. he/she/it told me it/she/he likes sunset.. I thought about he/she so I made a sunset.. this time I didn't download a coloring cuz that's not cool if it's a gift you know..

First I made this in Illustrator:

.. click to enlarge ne..

and .. well this is just the basic you know.. later.. I made in Photoshop .. like shadows.. clouds.. reflecting parts.. and that kinda stuff..

well here you can see:

click to enlarge..

it's made with my creativity .. and I even almost cried.. ..well ..just wanted to tell you that.. ..it's really made with my heart.. (I also like sunset)

it's made for you .. I hope you like it .?. next time I will make something with snow ..
..and more I wanted to share..

I made this coloring:

click to blaahh.. u should know it now

I didn't made by myself ..but I mean I colored it.. this one is just downloaded..

well it turned out to be this picture:

made in photoshop.. this one was so big.. that maybe for me the first time though... like maybe more than 20 layers -_- .. but I was almost out of time cuz I wasn't home.. so I made it real fast.. of course I thought about where the shadow should be and stuff but then quick..

so yh.. I like it though.. hwnn..

well this is all what I wanted to share..
(^^) kiwotsukete ne !

PS: .. please visit my deviant art homepage to see more stuff I made.. THANK YOU!!

He - - lloooo !!!

2009-11-23T00:54:00.006+01:00

Well.. now ..almost 1 o clock .. in the night ne..

hwnn..well ..not really tired but gonna sleep soon!

Lately I'm downloading colorings from google.. and using Photoshop to color it.. and..well it's not that difficult but just u have to be used to it.
first I colored some easy stuff like Ochaken and koinobori .. I already showed you last time ne (^^)b

well ..later I thought like "I want to do more difficult colorings" cuz I was bored xD hehe
I wanted to do a bird.. I don't like birds but.. they're so beautiful and looked for it..

well I found a peacock.. yh .....a peacock.. it was like this :

...well I thought this could be a bit difficult

and you know what ..!! ... it took me like..maybe 2 hours to color this f*ckin bird! OMG!!!... freakin lot of time.. !!
but yh.. it's worth it though.. cuz the result .... well I think it's not really good but well.. don't wanna change it .. *too scared to screw it up*
so..well ..the result......

.........................to be continued ...

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....

no am kidding ..xD well result :

click to see the full size ne (^^) I hope you like it!! ...well you must like it ..!

I only like the blue parts though.. but what ever (^^)

jyaa take care everyone!!!

(^^)b ! be a good kid! <3

mood: bit tired, happy *smiles*

Couldn't stay away~.. >_< am such a noob

2009-11-21T01:04:00.007+01:00

..ahh I decided to stop posting .. but I couldn't resist and I'm posting again..

maybe this will be the last post though.. for maybe this month? ..dunno.. well..

as I said earlier I was playing guitar.. for practice.. cuz I didn't feel so happii..
well.... ....my high E-string.. {{ the most below string of a guitar}} ..it broke .. again.. T_T

so now I can't play guitar.. I'm really depressed..
tomorrow I'm gonna buy a new string.. but I think it won't make me better.. cuz it's not easy to pick it up so quickly ..becuz I'm not that kid of person..

well ...I read a book but ..no ..couldn't concentrate ..

later I made some stuff in Photoshop.. please watch below.. Ochaken is my best work for now..

click on it to go to see more stuff like that ^^

<<> to go to my Deviant Art homepage..

very very very very very tired right now... thanks for reading...

why do we live?

Probably my last post for now..

2009-11-20T14:07:00.004+01:00

ou!.. {{means hi..} hwnn.. this is probably my last post for now. ..well ..I just want to be alone with my guitar.. still practicing to be a better guitarist... and using the dictionary though I can't find some words I want to know.. (-_-") *bored* ..just wanted to share this ^^

19.11... right?

2009-11-19T23:56:00.003+01:00

...ahhh yesterday I did go to a restaurant with my brother..

It's like eating sushi and more japanese food and stuff.. soooooo delicious!! =D
^^.. thank you ne! for all the work there and stuff..!!

hwnn today.. I woke up.. and ..play guitar for a while. than my guitarist came to my house and we made a stupid funny new song.. whahah
He really likes it and I'm like.. ..okkei. I like to sing {{actually alot of screaming}} it.. but hwnn well.. it's just funny..

the lyric is Japanese..but because of the microphone in the mobile couldn't take so much sound..it sounds not Japanese.. xD whaha.. I'll give you a link.. here you go:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9rwbyHLU3Y

I can't upload because I don't have the clip ^^" sorry!

well.. I hope...hwnn..you like it? ...whaha.. this was just for fun ^^

Now am still playing guitar.. learning.. "Suteki dane - final fantasy X" ^^ maybe you should check it out @ youtube if you like..

more.. let's think.. dunno anymore though .. think am gonna stop writing

jyaa mata na! ^^

mood: amused, happii ^^

Today.. schoolday~

2009-11-16T14:18:00.005+01:00

Helloww!!

Today I woke up and thought I don't wanna go to school but I can't miss too much lessons.

The teacher we { another friend and I } don't like wanted to talk to us, why we left last week. Last week we we're getting annoyed by some classmates and we felt angry so that's why we left actually but we didn't say that of course. He asked if it's his fault but we said no..
He said that if we won't talk then we're in trouble. I knew he was saying that because he's just too curious and wanted to know. I don't like it if someone's pushing so decided to say nothing. Later I almost cried by thinking about the last days, about everything I worry about and just .. I still felt down.. more than yesterday. So I just said that I was worried about someone and nothing more. I couldn't speak much cuz of my tears.

Later I talked to someone .. my mentor .. after that I felt more pressure in my mood ..feeling sick and stuff.. ahh well..

Later again I went to friends home { still same friend } and we were doing waterpipe . I don't know how to say in English but well ..please try to understand me.
We were having fun with making bubbles and stuff.. One bubble just fly away and we said goodbye and wished the bubble a good travle! hehe.. for a moment we had fun with it. I'm really glad of it too..

Now at school.. so bored. I'm gonna go outside soon.. feeling sick and stuff.. feel like throwing up.
ahh well.. I think this was more happier post than yesterday as I promised.

wanna go to Utrecht.. ..... .... ... ... ... .. .... ... . .. .. .. . no money T_T
next time ;3

jyaa !!

New song posted please check out. Quality still sucks. sorry for that. ^^"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNekZwPmLCk

Thanks for this day. ^^ I was happy

2009-11-15T22:18:00.006+01:00

today.. I had a nice day. I went to friends place in Utrecht. bought Starbucks coffee and..well I drank it.. ghehe .. actually it was a bit too sweet but well didn't mind.

Later we went to Tivoli just to watch the suicidal teddy bear. cuz I wanted to show him to my friend.

Later we went to the house of my friend.. {{ ahh.. I'm not saying her/his name cuz of her/his privacy.}}
and watched movie and being sleepy and eating and stuff.. just normal things. for me it was fun. I was feeling down. and if someone can make me laugh..then I'm not pretending.. cuz it's difficult you know.. on the way back at home.. I felt down again .. actually I wanted to get out of the train at Gouda and go back to my friends house. but I thought..that I shouldn't bother my friend.

I really wanted to hug someone..

..headache.......... almost whole day.. >_< who wants my head?!

......won't give it anyway~ Qweehee~~ {{ that's my way of saying "Teehee" .... don't copy! }}

hwnn.. next time I'll write with more happiness..

PS: ..people who gets mail of this Blog. I just added some mail address in this kind of network so if everytime I post something then it will be send automatically!!..

...be happy and never give up!! ...

...unlucky days

2009-11-08T23:14:00.004+01:00

waiii.. I forgot this blog..xD whaha!

well I've got a cold sore or something now for 5 days. It's all over my upper lip and it hurts and it's itchy and stuff..

the first day with it.. I was lucky.. NO SCHOOL ... omg..so lucky!
It was so big that I went to my doctor.. and he said like 10 min long.. like "waow.. it's really big huh!".. haha.. that made me smile.. but I couldn't smile because that's like stretching my lip and makes a wound.. >< so annoying.. I can't laugh or smile right now. so painfull...and annoying!!

well the second day it was getting better but.. still painfull..same with the third and the fourth day {that's yesterday}.. today my last day to take those medication {5 tablet for one day and 3 times doing something on my lips.. for the virus.}..
the medication makes me annoying and bullying people while I enjoy actually..xD whaha
but I won't hurt them or something.. NEVER! I can't hurt my friends.. or other people.. even a bug.. I can't.. it's just.. .....kawaisou~.. {I dunno the english word..}

ahh well they'll get over with though.. and some people I wont bully.. cuz they're too nice to me.. so I can't..

tomorrow school.. my lip is still worse.. but getting better.. so I'll go with a scarf .. and I know that some teachers are going to say "Mauw.. can you take your scarf off of your face..".. well I'll be prepared for it so I'll take it off and they will see a bandanna around my face.. ... if it's about my reputation.. am not that stupid.. they maybe say "take that off too".. but I won't listen.. and if they're getting annoying.. I'll wonder why they're like that becuz they never really saw me before and stuff.. and now because of this they will.. strange..

probably I'll walk out of class .. cuz they're annoying.. but well.. I don't care anyway.. I'm also human.. like everyone.^^

...just a hour and it's my last medication time.. for the tablet ^^ yay! I hate medication.

the last one for my intestine made me depressive.. I even thought seriously about suicide.. but well it's over now..^^!! so don't worry!! I won't commit suicide!!

I made this new song! =D it's called "Dare no tame"..
That was one year ago when I wrote it.. I was feeling a bit down and asking myself why I'm living.. becuz.. I'm a transgender as you know.. and well my family isn't supporting me for that.. made me bit depressive.. so well ..that's why..

please copy/paste link. It won't upload and I don't know why.. sorry ..please forgive me ^^"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0qXlK7L2_g

hope you'll like the song.. I allready got some comments and rates..^^ thank you
I'm happy to be here.. .. my goal in life.. is to create a bit of world peace inside everyone of you!!

please be happy to live and follow your dream..and like I always say!!

NEVER GIVE UP YOUR DREAM..!!

oyasumi ^^ <33

Hello! .... again..!!

2009-10-22T22:39:00.003+02:00

HI... and again after a long long long!! time.. ghehe xD

I was really really busy.... yh that's actually a bit of a lie.. well..now I'm really ..I don't know actually..I'm not bored ..but not busy with something..hwnn.. ahh well I'll tell you this..

Like you all don't know.. {cuz I never talked about it..I think..}.. I went to Kendo Training and well did practice.. =D

....made new song..but well it's not new anymore.. ugh... I really don't know what to write..

This morning my mom called my grandma in Japan by phone..becuz my lil sister wanted to talk with her..

well my look kinda changed.. ..talking about my hair style... I didn't cut it..but..just.. with gel.. did my hair a bit backwards..xD.. but at the picture it's not backwards cuz I took a bath before I took the picture..XD lol..

a well.. amuse yourself.. I'll be back soon... BYE!!

.....ehe.... =3

TOM!!

2009-10-01T20:15:00.001+02:00

OU!!

I've just post ..but forgot one thing..xD haha

I forgot to say.. that I'm gonna make some music with Tom!!

SEE PICUTURE BELOW:

He's cool huh =D

ahh well.. xD I hope we can make some nice music =D

laterz!!

Long time no post =0

2009-10-01T19:40:00.004+02:00

O!!M!!G!!

am back~.. =Dwaow....

I almost forgot my blog..xD hehe no am kidding..~

well I helped the peepz at CameraJapan~.. and it was really fun!!.. I had to cosplay so my mom said.. why dun u cosplay Naruto then!!..cuz Naruto is really like populair..so ahh well I though.. why not.. and I did it.. =D yaayy!! pictures!! watch belowww!!

....the other peepz are like.. I dun wanna show their faces cuz they need privacy too u know... ;D
..I dunno who that man is anyway..xD

more naruto!! watch beloww!!

yh.. sorry for the LQ emoticon.. xDhehe ahh well

more...hwnn dunno actually... ahh.. =0 a square Kirby!! xD

ghehe..xD cute.. I like kirby hehe..

hwnn... AAAHHH!!! I went to the concert of Miyavi!! =D
hwnn .. I've met many peepz.. and..one of them is..really cute.. (I mean the new peepz I've met)

..my usual friends.. ..well.. BLEEPP!.. that's all I have to say..and she knows that I'm talking about her..xD hehe..Qweehee!!

ahh well her name is.. "!@##$"... sorry can't say.. =D

she's really cute.. I really really..really..like like her.. =D..<333 sweet ="D..just">

okay.. I'll stop right now..about them.xD

But the concert is was so cool .. actually I almost died.. cuz peepz behind us were pushing and pushing u know.. ..really terrible.. until I went go back and I went upstairs.. (yeah~..upstairs..) hehe..xD and then ..from that moment on..I really enjoy it =D

and like always.. after every Miyavi concert.. I cried...

it's just.. he looks like my aunt..in japan..and the last thing I saw in Japan was her face with tears in her eyes and her voice saying "bai bai".. it just really makes me feel I wanna go back.. and hug my family.. (I never did).. ..that's really one thing I wanna do.. T_T

ahh well..just 2 years.. and I can go back.. ..can't wait.. but still I'm thinking about.. "should I stay or should I come back to Holland again~?"...cuz I have friends here.. also in Japan I have many friends.. but still........... I really don't know...

ahhwell ^^

I made a new song.. "Our World".. hwnn.. I can write the chorus down:

a perfect world is inside your heart
if you are happy, if you just smile
if you just do the things you like
the people around you will be happy too
they will feel how strong you are
so that's one of the keys to make worldpeace~

that's actually the second chorus.. ^^
I just have to record it.. if I've got time to do so.. -_-

well..before it's going to be a really long post.. I'll stop for now ^^

see ya!!!

New Stuff!!!

2009-09-16T23:10:00.005+02:00

Hi again,

..ahh well..a few days ago I guess.. I didn't post.. ahh well ..

Today.. it was like 2 seconds before I almost left home to go to school.. There came something for me..

- Wallet { Black Label Society
- Cap { Just all black
- Iron Cross patch { ..just a patch..
- Bag { Black Label Society

am really happy with it.. I dun have a picture of everything but I got one of me and my cap..cuz I was bored again.. xD

ahh well.. here you go..

and I'm off..
Later!!!

Wallpapers!!

2009-09-11T20:42:00.004+02:00

Hi..

Yeah..I'm making wallpapers.. my newest till now is the Iron Cross wallpaper!! yaayy!

Click HERE for more!! =D

I made 3 more... cuz this is just my 3rd day so.. but anyway.. I've got ... Naruto wallpaper, Sasuke(naruto)wallpaper and ScReW wallpaper.. ScReW is a Visual Kei band ..

Can't wait to make more.. but 1 wallpaper cost really lot of energy from your arm you know..
sometimes it really hurts ...
ahh well ...

hwnn.. OMG! ....today.. in the metro.. there was this girl.. don't know ..maybe chinese or korean.. but I think Chinese... she.. was cute..~.......*melts*
..we had 3 times long eye contact ...hwnn~ <3 *rabu rabu..*

ahh well.. =D

for my black label society / Iron cross collection.. I ordered a bag and a wallet =D so can't wait for it!!

This is it for now I think =D

later!!

Cut my hair and more...!

2009-09-09T20:33:00.009+02:00

Hi PEEPZ! xD

sorry.. just a bit happier than usual cuz!!!!! my mom cut my hair!! yayy!! =D
*see picture*... ahh and at the picture.. I didn't put that gel thingy in my hair so well.. xD

hehe..xD lol it's really short now.. ahh the last one was shorter though.. =D

Well at school I was bored.. so I did draw something.. and that something is.. Ki..

Ki is a character of my Manga.. He's a kid who's half monkey.. ahh well it's just fantasy so it's normal..xD
He's trying to escape from his world where he's raised by peepz there.. he's trying to get in the real world..so that means this world.. with normal peepz and stuff =D
ahh..my English sucks.. xD sorry for that..

I took that picture of Ki with my cellphone cuz it's not done yet.. so it's just a preview.. ^^

AAH!!
I've got a clone! 0o.. yh... really... but not sure though..XD

there are people saying that someone really looks like me.. so.. 0o.. I'm really curious about that other girl.. =0 I didn't see her picture yet cuz they still don't have it and she's not online every day so.. ahh.. still waiting.. xD hehe

TAKE CARE!!! =D

YYAAAAAAAAYYYY!!

PS: click here to watch my Deviant Art (here you can see all my drawing stuff and more!!)

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10th post allready!? 0o......

2009-09-07T20:35:00.004+02:00

yayyy... I'm back~..

well today I did go to school.. just for a good friend..Sora =D yaayy
and tomorrow.. I'm going to school for myself =D no yaayyyz~

ahh well.. I did watch "the cat returns" I think that was the English name though.. ahh I watched that thing 10000 times but a good friend of mine wanted to watch so.. =D yayyy~

I'm hungry~.....................................

ahh sokka! =D I bleached my hair.. not much though.. but I did it =Dyayayyy~! *see picture below*~
actually I wanted to do that before I go to Japan *about 2 years* .. but well I couldn't wait.. xD so ghehe

hwnn.. well I wanted to make some music but my mind is still lost.. so it's so difficult.. .>

..listening to many music but still no inspiration.. so stupid.. ahh well.. I guess I have to wait for it. =D yyayy..

well take care and have good days =D
!! later!!

.. hehe =D lol!

Gokusen..

2009-09-02T21:38:00.002+02:00

Another post.. waow..

I watched Gokusen again.. the first time I saw that Jdrama was in Japan.. almost 2 years ago..
well.. it's just a good story.. and can't wait to watch the movie.. oh well..
you should watch that Jdrama.. ^^

I'm pretty tired so.. this is it for now

take care.. sleep well and be nice to people..!!

mood:..tired............am always tired... ugh..

a dream.......................... 0o

2009-09-01T09:57:00.005+02:00

I had this dream you know..
just so weird.. *just woke up so remember a lot*

well before I forget .. let me tell you....

I was there at Miyavi concert {still have to go in real life} with Bryan {a good friend of me} and there was also this girl.. dunno I saw her yesterday at the metro station..XD she was in front of me and wanted to see Miyavi so badly that she didn't let me through to be in the front.. but Miyavi wasn't there yet so everyone just go to dunno somewhere..
so suddenly an other friend ..Bo .. she called me and said that she couldn't come anymore.. cuz she was allready too late.. and I looked at my watch and indeed still one hour to go.. well they started without her and I just made my way to Bryan.. and I dunno why but that girl {dunno her nameXD} was fighting .. 0o tfak..XD
well later I came home.. I wasn't there till the end.. cuz Bo wasn't there.. so when I came home I realized that my MSN was still status : online...

so I look at my screen and at least 20 ppl were talking to me.. xD really stupid..
and also the girl who couldn't come to concert.. so I said to her at msn that I wasn't there till the end and what really strange is...

you could hear the concert on radio.. and when I looked through the window outside.. I could see a rollercoaster in my garden...

and then I woke up...XDlol

really stupid.. XD but funny............... well in the end it's funny..
cuz when just woke up.. I thought it was real... that some of my friends couldn't make it to the concert and stuff.. thats really.. not funny... T_T

ahh well.. have a good day! =D

Ugh.........

2009-08-31T22:50:00.004+02:00

Yo~

this day.....just..waow.. this day really made me feel tired..

at first.. in the moring..well that part I actually allready forgot.. later my mom left and well my step father is working so I was alone at home with my lil sis and lil bro..
so.. later my lil sis came back home {yh she went outside for a while}.. with her friends.. was a bit annoying. laughing girls.. ugh.. they were laughing at me .. probably cuz I'm a Tomboy and my look.. really stupid.. but well.. girls ..
and then my lil bro was home with a friend of his.. his friend can play drums so.. I let him play..

later my friend called me and asked me to go with her outside.. well I said "okay" and went outside..
I met an other girl.. Femke {yh.. still know ur name xD}.. she's really nice ^^
well we had a lot of fun and I realized that I spent too much money.. but I don't care..

well this was the funny part though.. after I came home.. ....

well.. I don't remember much but my mom left again and later there was this boy.. REALLY REALLY REALLY annoying little prick.. he's like "OMG I WANT THIS!!" and just does things he wants to..
he wanted to borrow our Nintendo DS.. well NO WAY KID!!... I said.. "no .. why don't you buy ur own kid".. so he said "I can't" and stuff.. well I can't blame him .. he's just 8 years old but still so annoying..
he also wanted to touch my guitar... NOOOO WAYYY !!.. it was like.. I was drumming and he wanted too so.. he took my sticks and just being stupid in my eyes.. and becuz my room is like a big studio..
he said.. "lets start our own band".. I said "no kid.. I have my own.. go out of my room"..
well he left my room en blaahh.. ...later he was looking for the DS..well I put that thing somewhere he couldnt find.. stupid kid..

well there was more but that's too much for now..^^ take care and thnx for reading!! =D

Photoshoot for school..

mood: tired.. and..just..tired.. =_="

I forgot..

2009-08-30T18:17:00.003+02:00

AAhhh.. yesterday wasn't a good happy normal day..
I won't tell u why cuz I dun wanna tell u =D hehe

well today I was singing in my room.. wanted to make a new song and I did but didn't wanted to record it.. dunno why.. lazy I guess.. well my band; Silver String.. has now 2 new members. well they are not in yet but maybe they will..

the 2 kids are friends of my guitarist; Reno.. and well he's saying that they are good and stuff so well I can't wait to meet them actually..

I got a new jean from my mom.. it's a bit too big but hey.. it's something..
what I wanna do is just.. lay down and look to the clouds.. I can't wait to go to school again.. normally I'm happy with vacation but I just wanna work hard on it.. I know I can study and I know that I'm not a dumbass and stuff.. and I also know that school isn't my place.. but I have to do it.. to go to the place I use to be.. to go to Japan and make my dream come true
or else.. I think that I'm gonna break down.. and don't know what to do..

well.. this promise I made "No matter what I'm going to make my dream come true"..am not gonna break.. even if I lose everything.. I dont care.. its my life .. my dream.. and am gonna make it on my own ^^

so. no matter what. don't give up..!

status: tired..tired.and inspired.. ^^"

3rd eyebrow..

2009-08-28T21:40:00.004+02:00

hahaha..XD today.. it was soooooooooooooo funny!!!!

well I woke up like dohh~ xD and then shizzles .. blaahhh

later today my best friend Sora came to my house.. and well we talked about idea's for the movie.. and yeah we finally got stuff..not much but enough to start a movie..
and then... I called an other friend Melissa.. asked her where she was.. well that's not important but well later we met and talked about the movie and changed some plans.. and more.. well...

we went to the macdonalds..XD I spoke a good friend again and well lol!
but we're not gonna talk about that..xD
We were eating and behind us there was sitting this girl (see picture) haha..XD We just really broke her down with words (she didnt hear it though)..XD well.. she just had this 3rd eyebrow..XDomg..

We didnt like the look .. just weird.. XD like ugh.XDhaha
really funny funny funny!! x3!!
her 3rd eyebrow even surpassed Siwons eyebrow!! XD D'OMG!!
we really had fun.. still now..XD =D Qweehee~!!

lol!

ahh well.. if she read this.. I dont care.. just have fun with your life.. =D

later!! TAKE CARE NOW!! =D

This time..

2009-08-27T22:24:00.003+02:00

Yo!

I just woke up with a smile.. and ended now with....well not a smile..
today was a weird day.. it was like this..

I spoke with a friend of mine.. and he brought an other girl.. well okay.. that's okay..
but she brought an other girl.. well fine.. what ever.. and she.. brought her boyfriend.. and I'm not really good with super new peepz. so I wasn't talking at all.. I just looked at them and tried to figure out how they were.. like what kind of people you know.. so..
well.. I don't wanna be friends with them.. such nice kids ..but not my type.. =3 sorry..

but what ever.. that was really cracked up and stuff.. xD kinda boring.. but well..

and then .. well I was home.. still home.. xD listening to Mest and Simple Plan and I ain't know why..

really weird day today..

mood : tired!!.. bit mad and listening to music.. ^^

take care !!

Chilling!!!

2009-08-26T17:34:00.003+02:00

Hey ssup~?

Today .. It was a warm day.. really hot..
but well, it was nice..

I was outside with 2 friends; Ella & Vincent...
I don't really know them but what ever.. =D

We just walked and walked.. talked and talked..xD probably you'll say.. "BORING!!"..but
no =D .. it wasn't actually.. quite fun!
.... I don't know what to write about actually..xD

...hwnnn.......let's see....
...yeah I know.. I use a lot of dots.. xD I ain't know why..

I really don't know.. so let's just stop then! =D

;3 later!

Movie!!

2009-08-25T15:08:00.000+02:00

Hey, how are ya?

Today I'm doing fine and I thought about.. making a movie!!!

yaaayyy!! well, I'm going to make this movie together with a good friend of mine : Sora.
It's going to be a Comedy this time. It's kind of like "Scary movie" like taking some cuts of
a serious movie and make it as a comedy.. but well we're not sure though.
Because I'm thinking of making a comedy just of our own but that's going to be more difficult.
We can try so first we're going to try to make a scary movie look a like.. and if thats not going to
work then we're going to make a movie just of our own.

I hope this will work!! ^^

Status: inspired, happy and tired.

Mauw + Sora

Hi..

2009-08-25T14:52:00.000+02:00

I'm Mauw, new here..

Just clickin and testin some buttons.. I don't know much about this site so
just taking a look and if I like it.. I'll stay here.

At this moment I'm making a song now my finger can finally move. Playing guitar
and writing more and more songs.

I hope this one is good for now..
take care!